About Me
I don't know if anyone out there is even interested about this, but if I don't put it, then everybody will ask for it. And if I do, nobody will want it. I guess that's just the way life works, doesn't it?
So here are some questions about me. Read them. Don't read them. There are a lot of them. Maybe too many, but then again, I have nothing better to do.
My full name is: Helena. I'm not giving you a last name, remember?
I was born on: A day that falls somewhere between January and December. But not May 4th. Definitely not then.
I am a citizen of: The Universe - and proud.
My star sign is: Hopefully not Cancer.
My parents are: Alive.
I am currently at: High school. Oh, the joys.
What I like about my school studies is: The classes I don't have with Lysander. I.e, one. At least Demetrius is in that one so I can admire from a distance.
What I dislike about my school studies is: See above.
I am saving up for: I'm broke. Don't trust me with money. Don't trust me with anything important because I will lose it, I can promise you that much.
My favorite activity/activities include: Sleeping, snoozing, and sometimes snoring.
My favorite color is: Black.
I am: A messy person; with feelings and items.
The best time of the day to me is night because: I don't have to see anybody. Maybe I never want to see anybody. Nobody wants to see me.
MY PAST
When I was little I remember that: I used to go swimming. I never do anymore, because it always feels like I'm trying to drown my sorrows, and that's not what I'm about. I think. I would like to think I have a whole lot of attitude, hence the early answers. But hey, nobody's going to see this anyways...
My childhood was generally: Positive, as Hermia was actually a decent person and not a scheming backstabber.
I find / always found school to be: Boring. You're crazy if you like it. 'Course, life is crazy, so aren't we all technically insane?
The best thing anyone has ever said to me is: "Not Hermia but Helena I love. Who would not change a raven for a dove?" (2.2.86). At least Lysander got the raven part right, even if he was under drugs. Which I did not know at the time!
The worst thing anyone has ever said to me is: "I charge thee, hence, and do not haunt me thus." (2.2.57.) That one hurt. And that guy wasn't on drugs.
What no one has ever told me is: That I'm worth something.
In the past I have been hurt by: Everyone to ever speak to me. God, I hate feelings.
I am proud that I: Am still alive, I suppose. Right now there isn't much I can say I'm proud of.
I look back at my life and I feel that: I made too many mistakes.
The worst thing that ever happened to me was: Demetrius leaving me for Hermia. Try having that happen.
The last thing I purchased was: Some nice shoes. I can't mope around all day, right?
MY FUTURE
In my teens I hope to achieve: True love and happiness, although I doubt anyone knows what that really is.
In my twenties I hope to achieve: Sheer joy.
In my thirties I hope to achieve: A lasting marriage with the one I love. Maybe a family. That would be nice.
In my forties I hope to achieve: A proud feeling when I look back on my life, knowing that I did at least one thing right.
I think marriage is: A beautiful concept that should not be ignored and overlooked as often as it is.
The goals I have include: I have none at the moment. Live in the present and all that, as gloomy as it is.
I am looking forward to: The day when this all seems like childish behaviour, because I need an epiphany if I want to see another year...I've never admitted that.
I am worried about: Being unhappy. If I am happy, everything else will work out...right?
I am confident that: I'm a horrible person for doing some of the things that I've done to other people by just existing.
I feel uncertain of: An unsolved ending.
I know for sure that: One is coming.
MY PRESENT
I love: Demetrius.
I believe: He deserves whoever he wants.
I am happy when: He glances at me, as little as he does.
I feel comfortable in: His gaze. His eyes make me light up inside.
I need to: Show him just how much I care.
My dreams are: Nightmares of the one thing I fear.
I am concerned that: Nobody will understand what I'm going through if I tell them.
I am conflicted by: My own feelings.
I am confused that: I don't know who I am.
I am angry that: I don't know who I am.
I am sorry about: Being young and naive and doing things I'll regret.
I would like to change: Everything.
I am scared that: I will die by my own hand. If I do not, these feelings might just kill me instead.
My most secret desire is: Someone will save me.
I like it when: I don't think these things. I've never told anyone these things. I don't know why I'm telling strangers.
I dislike it when: I realize just how deep I'm in.
I have the strangest feeling that: I'm right about more than I know.
I think that I cannot: Change, even when it seems I must.
What no one realizes about me is: I think something's wrong with me.
I see: Disfiguration where others see beauty.
I find it easy to: Hide.
I find it hard to: Laugh.
I am at my best when: Nobody's around.
I am tired of: Trying to put on a smile.
I hope that: I can finally figure this out, and get past this, but maybe I can't.
My destiny is:...It scares me, but I think it's to die.
God, I hate questionnaires. Always bringing out my honesty. Yet, I don't think I have the strength to change the answers, because they're true.